| BLaH |
[Sep. 5th, 2004|11:14 pm] |
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| |  confused | ] |
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| | cute without the e~taking back sunday! | ] |
IM GOING STRAIGHTEDGE!! and it sux! but its good!and my heads full of questions like is it worth it? will it make a difference? i hope she notices...i dont know what to say...goodbye |
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| CoRRiE :) |
[Aug. 21st, 2004|04:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | coheed and cambria~ bye bye beautiful | ] |
tonight im goin to the train station!! anyone wana go meet us there!! and tonight i plan on calling corrie and telling her how i feel :)... iduno if this is gona help or no, but i hope so... ive liked her for so long... but well im goin to the train station tonight and theirs a possibility of me being realli fucked up tonight, or me being totally sober... |
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| emotional wreck |
[Aug. 18th, 2004|12:11 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | curious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ZaO | ] |
the lies and deceits has finished me, drained me dry of tears... the memory of you has lasted in my mind for years... the sadness i kannot explain, i thought i could change i wish you gave me the chance...i wish u wouldnt lie there and glance at me during my troubles, we've been through so much in so little time, your all thats on my mind, day after day minute after minute, now i have nothing to lose, now you are gone, now i say goodbye, the path i have chosen you may not like, as i take out this knife, as i sink it into my skin, as the blood follows drip after drip, the memories slowly fade, im starting to lose myself into my dreamz, i saw you and me i saw u in my arms, you asked me about the slices on my hands, i had nothing to say but lies, your kalling me now you read my intentions, but im afraid its to late its already started, one slash around the throat thats all it takes, and all those promises that u thought were fakes, you left me broken hearted, now im leaving u with a empty soul, a empty soul that u no longer control... |
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| life SuX |
[Aug. 14th, 2004|03:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | none | ] |
i JUSS WANA GO TO THE TRAIN STATION AND GO GET FUCKED UP! life sux, people suck! girls suck! everything sux! but not alchohol! im making this one short cuzz i really dont feel like typing... today i did nothing but work around the house and talk online... |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 12th, 2004|07:20 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | you know how i do- taking back sunday | ] |
watsup guyz!! today i kicked it with arthur and rooster, me and arthur went on such a hard mission! i talked to CORRIE today im so happy :), she caught her brothers friends tpping her house lol...tomorrow alien vs predator komes out i was supposed to go to coldwar concert but my ride cancelled :( that sux...but o well, so me,arthur, jacob, and rooster are gona go c alien vs predator tomorrow! :-D that oughta be good |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 9th, 2004|06:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 94 hours by as i lay dying | ] |
wattup guyz im back!! HEY COLDWARS PLAYING NEXT SATURDAY TICKETS ONLY 10 DOLLARS AT CHAIN REACTION!!! Y'ALL BETTER GO!! it should be good!! and then the next night scars of tomorrow are playing at the same place :)! well yesterday i was chillin with arthur and jacob and then today i went over to ericas house kicked it with her,brandon and jeremy.and well rite now im at da pit cuzz im BoOoOoReD!! lol..aryte well im out peace and love |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 3rd, 2004|07:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | dream to make believe by armor for sleep | ] |
i havent talked to corrie for a couple dayz!! shits happened between those dayz!! but on friday i went to knotts and got her a teddy bear and named it betsy :) lol...i hope she lykes it :/... and later that day i went and saw the village which sucked ASS, and then napolean dynamite and tomorrow im seeing napolean dynamite!! cuzz i never realli go tto finish that mooooovie lol...o well and this friday!! im going to the beach!! :), peace and love |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 26th, 2004|12:36 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | forever~ as i lay dying | ] |
CORRIES BACK!!!! I FEELT SO HAPPY WHEN I TALKED TOHER AGAIN TODAY!! :) IM KEEPING THIS ONE SHORT...PEACE AND LOVE |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 22nd, 2004|11:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | revenge i seek~bleeding through | ] |
Fuck your world and fuck your kind.
Go fuck yourself, you’re fucking barely alive.
I used to think of what you meant to me.
I think of you every fucking day.
Why the fuck did I let you into my heart?
Now where do I begin?
Today is my last fucking chance.
Erase it all and kill my past.
Fuck what we fucking said.
The memories don’t mean shit.
Don’t give a fuck about what you’ll say.
The memories don’t mean shit, anymore.
You’re society’s whore.
Anymore.
I’ll walk through this wasteland
Before I’ll ever fucking hold your hand again.
I’ll burn forever before I ever fucking see your face again, in hell.
Anymore.
And you’re society’s whore.
Anymore.
Motherfucker.
And that’s fucking right.
Fuck you forever.
I’ll despise you for the rest of these days.
Fuck you forever.
I’ll fucking hate you for the rest of my life, my life.
Why the fuck did I let you into my heart?
Now where do I begin?
Today is my last fucking chance.
Erase it all and kill my past.
Fuck what we fucking said.
The memories don’t mean shit.
Don’t give a fuck about what you’ll say.
The memories don’t mean shit, anymore.
You’re society’s whore.
Anymore.
Revenge I seek. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 21st, 2004|11:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | curious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | dead like me~bleeding through | ] |
now i write this bcuz me and bryanna were gona do a lil poem thing where we respond to each others lil sections well she thought this was to good so she kouldnt respond to it, so i juss thought id put it up on my lj for u guys to look at i hope u lyke it....
u were everything in my life... i gave u money i gave you respect, i gave you my heart...until he kame along, he was my best friend...the moment i saw u with him it was like u sliced my chest open and tore my heart apart, now im stuck here (locked the door) lookin down this 45. my whole life flashin b4 my very eyes, sseeing you through the good and abd times...seeing you in my arms... watching your smile...this is the kinda stuff what makes me think about it for awhile...i duno what i was thinking i thought i was in love mabe theirs a chance that we kan stay together, on 2nd thought i think ill juss pull this trigger...and all i have to say to u is go figure....
and yet after that one we tried again and ya know what lol she kouldnt match up with it...
u broke up with me once, u broke my heart twice into a million pieces, yet i still fall for you, yet i still stay true...i think im in love with you...but everytime i try to express the way i feel i get shut down, i go uo to u with a smile i leave ur eye sight with a frown, everytime i look at you i picture u with him everytime i c u kiss the tears drip from my eyes... |
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| happiness is klose yet so far |
[Jul. 21st, 2004|08:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | forever~as i lay dying | ] |
today at break i went tos unny hillz!! smoked a stog tried to go find a hose to fill up this bong so we kan toke it lol but it ended up that amerige is sooooo fucking rich that they dont have hoses!!and nancy kame!! finnaly...but we didnt talk!! cuzz of sumthin stuipid...but if she wanted tot alk she woulda kame up to me and said hi... but WATEVA!! and then after jake ditched with me and we went to mcdonalds bought erica a kids meal lol bought a cd and a card for erica to make her feel happy but it turned out dat she took it the wrong way :-/...and then after skool roos and jeff kame by and then me,delgado,alejandro, and jeff went to mcdonalds roos and jeff left and alejandro stayed at mcdonalds for football and me n delgado went to the bus and he went home wen i was going to ericas house!! which wen i got there i got drunk!!!! lol and then headed back to get tickets for bleeding through and throwdown but chain reaction was klosed and fuckin ticketmaster charged an extra 4 bux so fuck that so me and erik gamboner talked to cezar and he was gona leave later on that day to go get tickets so it all worked out...and TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY SMOKING CIGGARETTES OR WEED!! if shes quitting im quitting... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 20th, 2004|08:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | open hand~11th street | ] |
shes taken my life from me...shes stolen everything from me and everything that would be...my heart was open she walked right in...now shes gone and done, she left her growing sin...she controls me taken over my mind...stealing it everytime...stole what i see...left with wat i kant find...left with nowhere to hide....took my soul from me...left me here to cry, shes left wats bout to die...she kant control me...she kant darken my skies....she kant hear my cries...now shes stolen me again...she blinded my eyes...she controls me...captured my heart...now she knows me...now she knows shes tearing me apart... |
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| FUCK YEAH!! |
[Jul. 19th, 2004|01:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bring me down~pillar | ] |
this weekends been awesome!!!! on saturday i chilled with adrianna,erica,james,jake,ross,phil,rooster....it was awesome!! got drunk!! lol and a lil bit more :-D, nancy and bryanna thought james was hott!!!! haha dumbass's!! :-D...then rooster stayed the night at my house we juss like passed out as soon as we got there, and then on sunday i went to the beach with adrianna, and erica...it was fun we met up with these guyz that like had a band that played at the beach omg they were so good they grabbed so much attention...they were pretty chill we juss asked them for a ciggarette and we sat by them and they were so chill...lol aryte peace |
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| BOOOOOOOORED |
[Jul. 16th, 2004|02:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | love lost in a hail of gunfire-bleeding through | ] |
im at the pit rite now!! the only one here!! bryan n tyler went to knotts with a buncha freshman chicks boooooooooooooooooooooooring!im waiting for erika and damin and lil jon to kome to the pit!!well tomorrow hopefully ima chill with bryanna and nancy!! and then on sunday im supposed to go over to ericas house but im not sure if i kan!! and if i kant chill with her n adrianna on sunday i guess ima have to just kick back!!what i need to do is find rooster iduno where eric went!! i hope hes aryte, me n jake were gona go to ericas house today but her and adrianna were at their dads sooo we kouldnt realli go...cuzz their dads an ASS, but on monday ill prolly chill with adrianna hopefulli, |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 14th, 2004|07:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | surprised | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bleeding mascara~atreyu | ] |
LAST NIGHT I WENT TO CHAIN REACTION IT WAS SOOOOO BADASS!!!! the damn skinheads fucked me up!! i got smacked in the head twice, i went into the mosh bout 4 timez...i only say 4 outa 5 bands but it was styll badass, cuz i liked xanimo!! the first band was aryte, 3rd band was kinda to emoish but it had sum pretty good moshpits and i went into 2 so it was fun lol, and the 4th band was puuuuurty good...and like roos was gona sleep on the street by ericas house last nite and i didnt want him sleeping alone by himself so i stayed ont he street with him, and like stole 25 bucks worth of food from albertsons :-), and then erica and adrianna packed us so many jackets and blankets and pillows thank you guyz!! and we ended up sleeping rite by their house kame over in the morning cuz they gave us the key cuzz both of them are realli good friends and they trust us!!and then they got home about 3 in the afternoon we kicked it for awhile, erica went to work, adrianna me and rooster went on the bus met up with cody n philip and then me and adriannas friend mike kame on hes like 19 and damn he was the biggest druggy but now hes juss pimpin it lol we met him on the way to hunington beach...he thought me and adrianna were going out cuz the way we were acting on the bus...lol...and then i kame home kalled up jake talked to him bout bleeding through and throwdown and ozzfest...and now im writing in this damn thingy, and finnaly tomorrow im meeting adrianna at bout 7:40 in the morning lol to go to the movies to go see ANCHORMAN!!!! since we didnt go last time cuz we went to hunington beach, and then the next day instead of adrianna goin to the movies lol erica went with me and roos...aryte well im ouat here peace and love guyz |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 5th, 2004|07:57 pm] |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2004|05:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | when darkness falls-killswitch engage | ] |
its getting kloser to 4th of july wootwoot!! corrie i hope u have a fun time ill miss you :-)...lol yesterday was kool.. well today im doin nothin worked around the house dazz aboot it...and then tomorrow im goin with jake to his uncles house and it oughta be fun as hell!! im not sure wat to say in this so ima keep it short lol...peace out |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 30th, 2004|04:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | restless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | i should have sent flowers | ] |
haha lately ive juss been having fun!! but bcuz of bill that faggot got me kicked outa fucking summer skool along with eric roos,john beaty,and shotzie...the tunnels are so empty now we have all our tagging there but no roos or beaty...:-(...roos si goin to sum meeting this week to c if he kan go to a school in the fullerton district, yeah it totally sux for him...and beatys gona move to tennesse...o well...lol so yeah i just have a kickback summer now every break i go to sunny hills to c everybody adn after skool im down there 2!! :-)...oooo this weekends gona be TIGHT!! lol im goin with jake to his uncles house in santa ana haha izz gona be sooooo much fun!!! party hardy boyz!!2 more weeks till everybodys out of summer skool and kan chill finnaly all day!!!! lol thursday nite im stayin da nite at bryans house and we gona go fuck around!!!! go blow up michelles mailbox dat german whore!! |
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